long time no see.

nothing is more important than us.

Another meaningful song from JasmineC.

am pondering.

Just came home, went to alter my pants.

Alright, didnt make it to sentosa.
Woke up damn damn late.
HAHAHA. thanks to someone who didnt hear the alarm clock.
and, i'm partially at fault though.
(:

Alright, am going to so called 'celebrate' my birthday at zirca.
It's just a gathering actually.
don't feel like celebrating. FIRST TIME SIOL!
so i hope that there will be no cake facials, no pranks, no bash.

am thinking about it again.
what else can i do but think.
am useless in a way.
nothing better to do. HAHAHAHAAA.
Have been asked to set my private blog to public.
errrr. i doubt i can and i doubt i should.

Happy birthday to me in 8 hours. ):

p.s. : i miss you.

I'm tired.

hey people,
Its true that i kept texting and texting her.
No one would understand why i even do that.
Yea, i don't deny that i'm irritating.
I think i just couldn't control my emotions.
I can't bear to let go.
And, i don't wish to let go.

However, what can i do to this.
It's already decided for me.
I don't have a choice.
Am thinking of going overseas for awhile.

Won't be away for long,
mom planned a casino, games operation diploma course (something like that la) for me.
AGAIN!!!!
And then, will be working part time somewhere, I DUNO WHERE!
And will be doing my braces on monday!!!!! OMG!
AND LAST OF ALL, BOOKING MY CAR LICENSE PACKAGE BY END OF NEXT WEEK

I miss you like nobody's business.

boring!!!

I like HONEY RED TEA from SWEET TALK!
lol. lame. I'm trying to be childish here.
AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

DAMN BORED.
sooooo looonnngggg never blog here.
=D

MISS ME ANYONE?

<3 joelley.

WISHLIST

1. Louis vuitton wallet.
2. Mp3 player.
3. The other astroboy.
4. Vans original black shoe.
5. Converse blue canvas shoe.
6. Havaianas black flip flops.
7. Zara black hoodie.
8. Good digital camera
9. Someone I can trust totally.

p.s: Just posting for fun as I doubt i'll get any presents.

tiring day.

i just woke up from a deep sleep men.

its like so late now.

baby is playing psp beside me,

bell went work and,

krys is still sleeping.

deep long sleep=long bad dream

will be meeting drea tmr.

just hope i'll drop dead drunk seriously.

cause i hate the feeling of getting high and crying on the phone.

thinking of anyone that i'm not suppose to think of.

missed so many calls today men.

van, philip, apple, belle, joey, huihui.

i'm f tired. sorry.

got to know that what i've tried ain't enough.

its not how hard i tried and how much i tried.

its that the other makes you happier.

makes you feel that you're worth something.

and apparently, you're worth nothing to me and,

that's why i feel the pain that you're leaving in such a way. (haha, you're right)

2nd big impact for me.

just pray that i'll get over this.

i think i can...

its whether i want to.

alright, shall try to go on diet.

change to my past diet.

eat once a day or just don't eat at all.

just realised that i'm a fool indeed.

she wants her, not me.

I should just stop dreaming.

i'll just try to stop dreaming.

p.s: my friends are still there for me.

and they feel me.

so emotional.

如果你还爱我 - Guang Liang

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了
我知道自己在你心里已不重要
虽然我们曾经相聚过
也许对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆
我带着一颗沉重的心走了
我知道自己没有勇气道别离
虽然我们曾经拥有过
但是对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆
难道早以注定
不能真正拥有你
难道我真心付出一切
只为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道你不敢对我坦白
是不要看到我的伤怀
虽然你没有说要离开我
我已经感到你不再属于我
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
我只能含着眼泪
默默的离开
难道早以注定
不能真正拥有你
难道我真心付出一切
只为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道你不敢对我坦白
是不要看到我的伤怀
虽然你没有说要离开我
我已经感到你不再属于我
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
我只能含着眼泪
默默的离开
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
我只能含着眼泪
默默的离开

awake now.

just woke up from afew hours of sleep.

am at krystal's place now.
as usual, listening to all the songs.
feeling what i'm suppose to feel.

realised that chinese songs really bring out those sadness.
lol. Right now, i have to think...
how am i going to spend my night again.
I don't like to think.
I don't like to ponder...
It's so irritating.

Don't like being sober.
however, have been sober since ytd.
so what shall i do tonight?

p.s: how much that's on my mind,
you'll never know.
i miss you.

it's just how.

How Did I Fall in Love with You - Backstreet Boys

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

[Bridge:]
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall,
in love with you

partyworld-ed, drank alot.
f high,travis's place,home then kry's place.

its just not possible to tolerate this.
never thought i'll have to take this.
however, i still need alot of time to overcome this.

It's way too much.
really really too much.
however, i know i deserve it though.
but, think the other way round.
I doubt people would want me to go through this.
I really tried.
and i did no wrong since then.

will continue when i wake up.
will try to go to bed soon.
I'm just not able to fall asleep.
as, when i close my eyes...
its the vision of you and her.